2013 was an awful year for me and lance. but it was a fantastic year too. i should say the first half was awesome and the second half was terrible. but my brother, ty, called on christmas and told me something that made me feel better about all the crap that's happened to us in the last 6 months. i was telling him that we're finally starting to have things go right for us and he said that if we have trials and bad things happen to us then we're doing it right. and if we don't have anything happen to us then we're doing something wrong. and when we have bad things happen to us, usually there's something amazing coming just around the corner. it's heavenly father's way of testing how faithful we actually are. i hope we passed.
anyway. 2013 started out as good as it possibly could. we had a 3 week old baby. that was new but really cool. we were starting out our new family and we were hitting our 1 year mark which meant something even better. we were going to get sealed in the temple for all time and eternity. we got sealed on january 15th in the logan temple. being with lance and hyrum in the sealing room was the happiest i have ever been. seeing my little boy in his white suit and my husband in white was the best thing that has ever happened to me. we had made it so far in our life together and now it was going to last for eternity.
then we moved to logan. i didn't want to move to logan. why? because i don't like utah. and i don't like cities. let's be real. the biggest place i had ever lived was rexburg and i spent most of my time on the outskirts and away from everyone and we were moving to this place where it's impossible to go anywhere unless you wanted to spend an hour just driving through all the traffic. logan was a new adventure. we spent most of it hiding from our neighbors. they were really weird. but i guess to them we were the weird hermit family that only nodded in passing and whose dogs had to go to the bathroom every 2 minutes.
then we found out that we were pregnant with our second child and we couldn't be more excited. we were beyond happy. we were planning out our living situation, what we were going to name it, what it was going to be, how hyrum would like it. we planned everything. and then i went in for my 10 week check up. the heart wasn't beating. and that's when the year 2013 went down the crapper. the next 3 months were miserable. we quit school and came back to malta. we were living in a camper trailer in the middle of a field. not my ideal living place. if i hadn't lost the baby, i would be having it march 16th. we would know what it was and i would be pushing 30 weeks. it's hard for me to see everyone pregnant and complaining about how miserable they are when i would kill to have that misery. i swear i will never complain about being pregnant again....if i ever get pregnant again. to be honest, i'm not sure that it'll happen but i guess we'll take that as it comes to us.
then we found the Barretts. they are letting us live in their house. i am positive that sue was a godsend. she got my mind off of everything bad that was happening to me. with finances and the miscarriage. she became my person. i could talk to someone about it. and she could give me advice and listen. and we made this house really cute and that made me happy. working is the best thing. and i started working at bake central and have bonnie and valerie and gary that i can talk to and they listen and give me advice and take my mind off of things.
things still aren't perfect. but hyrum is walking and saying words and chasing the dogs. he's got such a big personality it kills me. and lance is being the best husband that he's ever been. we're pushing two years being married...that's awesome. considering no one thought we would ever make it past 2 months. to them i say: why have so little faith in me? and thanks for the support. (*SARCASM*SARCASM*) but we're doing what we need to do so i know everything is going to work out the way it needs to.
so here's to a happy 2014!!! i really really really hope it's better than the last.
